Gone in 7 secs.......

okie.... this is not the angelina jolie and nicolas cage flick. just wanna share some experience and thoughts...
this morning i went for the IPPT test for all army regulars. i have been training very hard recently. so the pressure has been mounting on me to get the gold award. However i would say that the only obstacle i have would be the 2.4km run, to be able to come back before 09.44mins. I know its easy for many people out there, i would say it requires training, and when the whole world thinks you are the one, pressure can be a dread. Which is happening to me. And the station was fine, so the time for the 2.4km comes, assembling at the start point. Suddenly the adrenaline rushes up my head, i can hear my heartbeats, my whole body is virtually shaking...I am feeling very kan qiong!!! Comd told me not to be nervous and look at the greens to stay calm.
The flag off goes, we started running. Funny when the thing starts, the feeling was gone, i was actually very focus. The strategy was to stay together with the big-time players, stay constant and open up on the way back. THis is to make that i will not get shag-out on the way back. i was following chee sing as he is of the same build as me, and not those fast starters. came the midpoint, i opened up, and push myself to the limit. The crunch point was the 1.8km part, the point when the lungs and heart are not listening to instructions. So came the brain and will power, wenyao and dave gave me two different way to pysche myself up. Wenyao say to think of someone that you would like to tell someone about this, dave tole me to think that i am the best, and not to slow down and give up all the tough training. I applied both, not saying who i am thinking about, and telling myself i am the best. It works... at least i could sustain the last stretch.
Reached the finishing point, i was told 0951, i was like WHAT THE FARK!!!! 7 dirty seconds, thats like 20 steps. Too bad, consolations from everyone, well done, next time you confirm can do it, no problem blah blah blah. All the standard sentences and statements, that will some how make you feel better and not so sad that you did get it.
It also brings us to a point. No matter what you have done and trained to make yourself ready for something, no matter studies or work. If theres no result or recognition to it, what meaning does it have?? In this case, i have trained very hard, i can have everyone telling me, wah ken you are so fit, you confirm can get gold, you are so different from before. However, all these are nothing unless, you can get a certification, like getting gold for IPPT. Because, for all the nice hearing political sentences that you hear, it will also end with a "but he cannot get gold" see what i mean, sounds familiar right?? If a company is very systematic with its processes and working styles, it should get a ISO 9001 to strengthen the faith of the workers and the custombers. Truly that it is not necessary, buit wouldn't it be a booster to the everyone, even on the newpapers, ABC Company ISO certified. so the point is clear. Even to people who studying hard, if you don't get good results, whats the point of studying hard??
I guess enough said, i think i have driven the point. For me now, is to get IPPT gold and show the world what i can do... Not feeling sad, but feel a desire to do it the next time. Which matter of fact i will, to get the $200 and tell someone that i got gold. =) Anyway i promised dave and all that i will treat them to jap when i get it, but guess they have to wait a while more. Weyling that gal is goin to eat seafood buffet later, making me feel so hungry, think after the disappointment today, i must eat something to make myself happy. Let myself grow fat a bit... he hee
Now is 1737, gonna meet simon, dave and kel for makan and gaming, ya i know.. BORING.... you think i give a damn to wat you guys think?? =P

regards
dreamwaters

Uncertainty.....

when i on my comp just now, suddenly i saw this website, www.jobstreet.com. Curious about what is it. Its a classified place when people put up job advertisements. So thinking that i would be jobless in months time, might just do myself a favour by scanning through and finding what are the options out there for me... This statement then surface onto me, "tian xia zi da ke you wo rong shen zi chu?" Yk says that i am feeling fear, but i would like to use the word "uncertainty" its sounds more appropriate in my situation now.
When a person works in a place for more than 2 years, when the work becomes a routine. When it becomes a burden, when it becomes a drag to go work. Lastly when you felt that you are going nowhere in the job. The answer to your mind would be move on, look for another job, in search of new challenges.
Situation 2, what if you are too comfortable in the job, everything is in place for you, pays good, benefits is enticing, everything is very nice. Then again, you are going to retire in 42. =) thats the catch.
For me i feel a case of both, i am in a job that comfortable, pays well, nice place, however i feel a burden in the job. My mind tells me to go and go for a search for new pasture. I believe life is a place and oppotunity to search for a thing thats so precious, its call Challenge thats a belief in my life, why stay for something thats so achieveable when you know that you are better than that. Some people might think that its nothing compared to money, wealth and statue. Come to think about it, when you meet the challenge, the above would just fall in, of course not those challenge like eating how many you can pee la. Even when that stupid William Hung went up and challenge himself in front of the world, he made a statement that shook the world (i dun wanna say it, its just rubbish from a person that if i am his mum or dad, i would wear a rubber and prevent him from getting birth, if i know he is going to things like that, can you imagine how that loser is gaining celebrity ship by being a fool duh" its just a state of mind. When you are going for a 100m sprint, when you are composed and calm, you somehow knew that it will just be yours.
We gonna be realistic about challenges and goals. Make it achieveable but make it higher than what you can do. So when you fall back you will not be that low, you will still be high up there. Accepting and recognising your weapons and traits that you have is impt, yk says more... recently yk seems to have met a wise man, he seems very chim recently. A little dark at times, irks me a little. he got the points, but the input style is something i din expert. It comes like a punch, and maybe because of that way, it etches more deep and harder into my mind. Nevertheless there are points that i agree and disagree, we just have to find out by trying. Afterall he is he, i am i, believes is something that comes with a man's experience in life. My believe definately deviates from his. However, it will give me points to ponder about. And that will firm up Kenny's Brand of Believe He hee (what weyling will say... nonsense leh you) its true, i mean the believe part.
All he said also contributes to my points of uncertainty, to be sure of whats the path and route that we wanna take. Planning what may come, what are the solutions and tools to overcome those, requires skills and thinkings along the way. However i would consider the most important thing for me, is the courage to take the first step, to step out of comfort and welcome myself to the world of uncertainty. And it is in the world of uncertainty, it is where challenges lies, only there will i reap fruits of success. sounds ambitious?? nah.... think its called desire and believe.
i will leave today with these words 天下既然大便一定有我容身之处 (thanks yk for his chinese words, coz my comp is a potato, cannot speak chinese) and because of that, "success belongs to the man who dares to venture to uncertainty ground" guess what thats the first sentence in "Kenny's chicken soup for the believer" yup thats the book name to my book of believes hahaha, corny right??
gonna go, going to watch american idol, lucky my fave camilie velasco is still in the competition, she rocks but she just need to gain more composure in her performance. GO GO GO!! wonder what is weiling doin also, din see her online also, maybe working hard, maybe playing minesweeping..... fyi she holds a record for the expert level ok (qouted by hers truly) mauhhah its 2157 time to hit the tv again... bye

regards
dreamwaters

Overseas Trip... =(

I was assigned to plan a overseas trip for Simon, before he heads for texas for his overseas attachment. I shortlisted a few places that fits into our budget. Only to hear that he have to surrender his passport one month before he leave.... so that also means that he cannot go... =(
Now i am very disappointed now.... haiz i know he must be feeling the same way that i do, he is really a true brother to me and to all of our brothers. But we have to bear in mind that the fact everyone has to move forward and upwards. We got to face the fact that its his turn and its for his own good. Changing of environment gives a person more exposure and experience. He might just become another man, but deep inside, theres one thing that will never change, that's us and him in his and our heart. Right Guys?? I will miss you dawg!!!!

"Eagles Die on earth to gather in Hell"

tomo still got presentation, time to sleep. its 2317hrs

Regards
dreamwaters