friends.... is it me or is it them??

Yesterday i met up with my poly friends. For some catching up. However i don't know why, something seems to be pulling me away from it. Its not as if i don't enjoy their company, its just seems so predictable whats going to happen at the gathering. What we are going to do in the end.
Okie we met at 2100hrs and as usual all are late except me and brian again. And god damn it lori din come. Met up ar Starbucks, hey i din order a starbucks drink, i bought a orange julius drink ok (for all you guy know, thats even more ex than a starbucks coffee =( ) anyway, started the catching up session. First time, i felt a silence in me. Something i don't usually feel and yes i don't feel like talking. i felt so out of place, especially all the bike talk, to a non biker?? I can see brian trying hard to blend in, but sometimes trying too hard, you know. In the end, i was sitting there for 2hrs listening to them with occasional smiles, cause thats the best i can do. At about 0100hrs, they going to JB to pump petrol and thus that ends the meeting. left the place with the intention to meet simon.
I don't what impression i am leaving in their mind, since i meet them very very rare, last time was last year november. Suddenly appeared again, acting like a snob, or what so ever they think. To be frank, the silence is not because of my attitude, but its just purely, i don't know and have anything to say. Normally when a group of old friends meet up, it would normally be a past reminicising session, but it always end up in a boring session of bike and sacasism. At least now the sacasim is lesser this time round. As for the bike part, i am surprised they did not brought up my bike learning experience ( dont ask, only those who know me long enough would rem, so if you dun know, dun ask too).
When i was walking home, something came to my mind "did kenny change, or did they change" but then again, people change, with different experiences and views in life, a person change, together with the surroundings. Maybe my views have changed, one reason maybe is that i don't really mix much with them, resulting in diverting views. Then again if i have a motorbike, things might have been different again. I would not say which is the outcome i prefer, the first or the latter, i would choose to say i am happy with what and who i am now. I am leading a life that i do get to choose what i like and want to do.
Happy to meet up with them, just that the topic...sigh enough said...
Today sucks, feeling sick and a very very bad sore throat, think i am dying from all the shouting during the anniversary rehearsal and dinner and dance. Now my throat on strike. Think i will need to go rest now.
Its 0044hrs, time to hit the bed.

regards
dreamwaters

dream.... do you have one?

As many if my friends knew that i was training with MDC, Music Drama Company for the past few weeks for the preparation for the Annual Dinner and Dance. MDC is my mind was a place for the chao keng and slackers. Boy how wrong was i.... its a place of talents, people there can all sing, dance, act and host. i would call it SHAOLIN TEMPLE hahahaha. but thats true.
i have undergo singing practices and dancing rehearsals. In singing, i always have that small and lil faith in it, no until i saw Ned and Nuris, they are the singing in charge. Ned is a nice young 20 years old chap, always trying hard to impart his knowledge. Nuris, is the typical bitch that can sing and criticize well and boy do she sing well. She used a word on me, you very chin chow leh. it means very cina basically. i sound like a chinese trying very hard to sing a english a song. Most of the time, my singing lesson becomes a english lesson =)
On the actual day, we went for a final rehearsal at neptune, it went all wrong for me. the key and chinchowness all came back, she also gave me a good one. Then came the actual show, People from MDC gave me a lot of support, aidil, moe, ned, nuris, and many many more. Then came my turn to sing, the moment was magical, undescriable. feeling of being in control of the crowd. The feeling of being applaused and appreciated. it made me realise why these people from MDC, why are they training so hard and not goin with main stream of singaporeans, who are slogging hard for their life. i would say the word would be PASSION and BELIEVE. The feeling on stage to them is magical, no matter how many times you will be on stage, it will always be a new feeling and the sense of achievement will always be there. many a time in life we would be busy chasing things in life that you don't believe in and ended becoming a slave of life. Therefore i am now asking myself this question " kenny teo, do you have a dream?" i do not have a answer til now. maybe anyone out there can also tell me, whether do you have a dream, and if you are working towards it. At least i know tat someone in this world is working toward something he or she believes in. At the end of the show, people from MDC kept asking me to join star search and Singapore Idol, wah make me such a happy poeple, i told them if Ned and Nuris joins Singapore IDol, i where got chance. i told them i would join star search, hahahah
What a joke.... its 0321am in the morning now, time to sleep now, telling to weyling now, wonder if the sick lady is going to rest soon.

regards
dreamwaters