burnt out.. =(

Recently i feel this sudden lack of energy in my life. It seems that whatever i am trying or doing something, there is this force that's either holding me back, or worse holding me down. It seems like a situation when Michael Owen unable to score or outrun players the way he used to.
Its seems that three weeks before, i was still quite energetic, totally different from what i am now, i was the alter-ego of what i am now. There was lots of work to be done for the iso recertification then, i guess after all the late nights working, i was burnt out by the work load. Now i am feeling so weak both mentally and physically that i dont feel like doing anything at all.
One more thing perhaps is that now i am facing a moment of transition of my life, throwing down this uniform to something else. It was not a easy moment, its a time that i worry about not able to get a job, unable to get the end point. Thats something that really worries me, even to the point that it irks me. Everyday i am worried about unable to get a job when i leave, to the extend that i start to think on the dark side. Trying to think positive is just the only thing that i can do now. This is the path i have chosen, now i have a chance to look for my end point. This is really a challenge, living up to it will be a very difficult task. I might just not make it.. this really sounds like the darkest hour in my life. Good and bad... good id that i am finally leaving, bad is facing the world once again.
I have faced this painful and cruel world since i was in secondary school, to be able to self suffice is really a painful and tired experience, but then again.. its a experience, that made a boy realise many things about him, building his character, and maturity. Nevertheless, he also have losses, he lost the most important thing in his life, it is called "youth". Youth is a priceless and precious thing that each will only have it once in their short and fragile life. I admit i lost it, when everyone is wondering what to do during wekend and holidays, i will be planning how to maximise my time to earn more money. He hee
Sigh.. i am never afraid of challenges, i am afraid whether are they willing to throw me the challenge. If they are going to reject me, i will be very disappointed, as in really very disappointed. =(
Finally Yk and Wl is coming back.. more people to accompany the lonely man.. =) Too bad i wont be around when they come back, haha ha on a exercise, 3days 2nights... god damnit cannot sleep liao.....
time is 1315hrs, rarely write in office hours, anyway its lunch time.. whats wrong? =)

regards
dreamwaters