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okie.... this is not the angelina jolie and nicolas cage flick. just wanna share some experience and thoughts...
this morning i went for the IPPT test for all army regulars. i have been training very hard recently. so the pressure has been mounting on me to get the gold award. However i would say that the only obstacle i have would be the 2.4km run, to be able to come back before 09.44mins. I know its easy for many people out there, i would say it requires training, and when the whole world thinks you are the one, pressure can be a dread. Which is happening to me. And the station was fine, so the time for the 2.4km comes, assembling at the start point. Suddenly the adrenaline rushes up my head, i can hear my heartbeats, my whole body is virtually shaking...I am feeling very kan qiong!!! Comd told me not to be nervous and look at the greens to stay calm.
The flag off goes, we started running. Funny when the thing starts, the feeling was gone, i was actually very focus. The strategy was to stay together with the big-time players, stay constant and open up on the way back. THis is to make that i will not get shag-out on the way back. i was following chee sing as he is of the same build as me, and not those fast starters. came the midpoint, i opened up, and push myself to the limit. The crunch point was the 1.8km part, the point when the lungs and heart are not listening to instructions. So came the brain and will power, wenyao and dave gave me two different way to pysche myself up. Wenyao say to think of someone that you would like to tell someone about this, dave tole me to think that i am the best, and not to slow down and give up all the tough training. I applied both, not saying who i am thinking about, and telling myself i am the best. It works... at least i could sustain the last stretch.
Reached the finishing point, i was told 0951, i was like WHAT THE FARK!!!! 7 dirty seconds, thats like 20 steps. Too bad, consolations from everyone, well done, next time you confirm can do it, no problem blah blah blah. All the standard sentences and statements, that will some how make you feel better and not so sad that you did get it.
It also brings us to a point. No matter what you have done and trained to make yourself ready for something, no matter studies or work. If theres no result or recognition to it, what meaning does it have?? In this case, i have trained very hard, i can have everyone telling me, wah ken you are so fit, you confirm can get gold, you are so different from before. However, all these are nothing unless, you can get a certification, like getting gold for IPPT. Because, for all the nice hearing political sentences that you hear, it will also end with a "but he cannot get gold" see what i mean, sounds familiar right?? If a company is very systematic with its processes and working styles, it should get a ISO 9001 to strengthen the faith of the workers and the custombers. Truly that it is not necessary, buit wouldn't it be a booster to the everyone, even on the newpapers, ABC Company ISO certified. so the point is clear. Even to people who studying hard, if you don't get good results, whats the point of studying hard??
I guess enough said, i think i have driven the point. For me now, is to get IPPT gold and show the world what i can do... Not feeling sad, but feel a desire to do it the next time. Which matter of fact i will, to get the $200 and tell someone that i got gold. =) Anyway i promised dave and all that i will treat them to jap when i get it, but guess they have to wait a while more. Weyling that gal is goin to eat seafood buffet later, making me feel so hungry, think after the disappointment today, i must eat something to make myself happy. Let myself grow fat a bit... he hee
Now is 1737, gonna meet simon, dave and kel for makan and gaming, ya i know.. BORING.... you think i give a damn to wat you guys think?? =P

regards
dreamwaters