happy today!!!

Today i am looking forward to the evening time portion. Its the time when the MDC and the Dinner and Dance committee staff gather for a reception and cert presentation. However for me, its sort of a gathering for people who helped me fulfilled a wish and help me believe in myself more.
Jonation the muscle man, Zee the Salsa dancer and Jos the funny mood guy. HAppy to see them, know them for less than 6 weeks met for less than 10 times, we are like long lost brothers. As usual they made fun of me, with the 1.78m Rosalind. They can do what ever they like to make themselves happy, neither me. Ned the cute looking 20 years old boy, now is in a competition on POWER98 NSF IDOL competition and he is top few!! woah, happy for my 20 years old singing teacher hehe.
Sitting down with the guys lets and reminds me of a lot of things that i have forgotten. Its like sitting down with friends that we have been together for a long time, and, they are only enlistees, Corporals to be exact, anyway they call me by names, i also prefer Mr Kenny to Lieutanent Kenny. Let's behave the way from the point that they know me.
It was a short gathering matter of fact, it was over in less than half an hour but it was a thing to cherish and a moment that these people are the ones that let me know that everyone has a thing in them, waiting to come out. They have unleashed the monster in me.
To be fact after the stint, going back to my boring and monotonous life as a officer trainer again, some how feels rather different and stale maybe just like what Ricky Martin sings "Livin la vida loca"

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dreamwaters

match making?? stupid and embarassed experience...

i was alone on the streets yesterday, dave and theresa was around and asked me to hop on the trip in search of things to do on a boring Sat night. We went to LIPs cafe at cineleisure, had a milk shake and a cheesecake!! yeah...
Suddenly came a call for a Theresa, her friends are coming... David looked stressed initially, however i told him, dude i got your back don't worry. True enough he dont have a thing to worry at all.
Came her friends i rem one name is wendy, another is eunice. They sat down and then ordered drinks. It was a rather cold one hour, untill wendy started asking me, so kenny what do you do?? HOw old are you?? Then came the Bombshell, so are you attached?? I am OH MY GOD!!!&*^*$%^ i said no, Then she said WHY?? so there a answer for this question?? She then said Eunice is single too sigh... in the end i really wanted to find a hole to hide. Not to mention Eunice =(
Seeing this situation, i had to do a ice breaker, i started talking to Eunice, asking her about her job and age. In the end, everyone was quiet and listening to our conversation. I really had no idea what i should do to solve this tough and shitty problem. So go abck to the magazine and act blur.
Before we left the place and go home, wendy came to me, so how?? my friend how?? can make it?? can be friend anot?? go and ask her number la, Really feel like slitting her throat. I just ask bodoh and run as fast as possible.
So this tell us that match making is something that kenny does not desire at all, and totally sees no need in it at all. But when i have a question, "why are you not attached for so long?" so why?? i told her that, do i have to have a gf 24/7?? i am sure i can live with it, til i found a appropriate one, So that a wrong answer? Or is it i am adnormal, those who keeps changing girlfriends around the year, is the normal one??
Its okie, even now when i am typing this, i still think i am normal, and i am not turning gay, if you guys are concern out there. Thanks. I AM FINE _I_ so i guess i will still be here waiting for NEO the one to appear. Hope she appears soon, and its not a he haha.

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dreamwaters

Second Chance

For all you people out there, wondering where i have been for the past few days. i was at a retreat. It is organised in the light of the units welfare, of the plans and problems to be rectified for the unit in the year to come.
There was a dinner after that, when all the regular staff contributed a sum of money from their performance bonus. Its was a normal dinner and some games to end the night. Everyone was "ADVISED" to stay for the night. So that means we can't go home. Its alos means that i haven't went home for the past week. its a week that i wish i never have to go chalet again. =(
Aloysius drank a little, and started talking about words of anger and frustration. Aloysius had a lot of bad cases and charges due to his poor conduct in the past. HE went through a lot in his later days and now he finally got his deserved SSG rank. He started questioning about the purpose of this chalet. As the boss advised all to stay, in the end many of the senior guys went home. He was very agitated about this, saying things in front of my boss, words of scarsiam came to my boss, questioning him why is he goin home. To me its a pure sense of idiotiness, questioning your boss.
After all the nonsense, he came to a point, he made lotsa mistake in the past. He asked everyone, was he given a chance to prove himself?? at least did people gave him a chance and believe in his change? He pointed out that, he did a lot of projects, assignments in the past few years. But he asked, people did all the above to get mileage and points to be compute in to the work performance, but his, is it just a chance to atone for all his past mistake and sins? To be frank i have no answer. Mistake or not, he should be happy tht he is still getting jobs and tasks, however if it is for the above reason, it is damn pathetic. He feels that he is condemned in everyone's eyes. Whenever people is late is work, they wil be forgiven, but if its him, his mistake would be magnified and discussed in public. Its true and its words from a man of frustration and anger. Which i do feel for him, but at rhe same time, it gets me thinking. For all the shit that he did in the past, he would have been discharged if not for people's help, giving him another chance to fight another day. It seems that the act of generousity and has eaten him, as a act of humiliation.
In his eyes was just pure hatred and unfairness of the system, which has given him a chance to fight again, but its the managers of the system who have decided to hang him by a string and leave him struggling.
I am not in a position to judge him, no one is. But is "no one" out there ready to give him another chance, some one who still have things to offer to the service? Who is frustrated that his abilities was not seen by the people out there?? I am ready, are you??
tired day... is a day that never seems to end...

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dreamwaters