Second Chance

For all you people out there, wondering where i have been for the past few days. i was at a retreat. It is organised in the light of the units welfare, of the plans and problems to be rectified for the unit in the year to come.
There was a dinner after that, when all the regular staff contributed a sum of money from their performance bonus. Its was a normal dinner and some games to end the night. Everyone was "ADVISED" to stay for the night. So that means we can't go home. Its alos means that i haven't went home for the past week. its a week that i wish i never have to go chalet again. =(
Aloysius drank a little, and started talking about words of anger and frustration. Aloysius had a lot of bad cases and charges due to his poor conduct in the past. HE went through a lot in his later days and now he finally got his deserved SSG rank. He started questioning about the purpose of this chalet. As the boss advised all to stay, in the end many of the senior guys went home. He was very agitated about this, saying things in front of my boss, words of scarsiam came to my boss, questioning him why is he goin home. To me its a pure sense of idiotiness, questioning your boss.
After all the nonsense, he came to a point, he made lotsa mistake in the past. He asked everyone, was he given a chance to prove himself?? at least did people gave him a chance and believe in his change? He pointed out that, he did a lot of projects, assignments in the past few years. But he asked, people did all the above to get mileage and points to be compute in to the work performance, but his, is it just a chance to atone for all his past mistake and sins? To be frank i have no answer. Mistake or not, he should be happy tht he is still getting jobs and tasks, however if it is for the above reason, it is damn pathetic. He feels that he is condemned in everyone's eyes. Whenever people is late is work, they wil be forgiven, but if its him, his mistake would be magnified and discussed in public. Its true and its words from a man of frustration and anger. Which i do feel for him, but at rhe same time, it gets me thinking. For all the shit that he did in the past, he would have been discharged if not for people's help, giving him another chance to fight another day. It seems that the act of generousity and has eaten him, as a act of humiliation.
In his eyes was just pure hatred and unfairness of the system, which has given him a chance to fight again, but its the managers of the system who have decided to hang him by a string and leave him struggling.
I am not in a position to judge him, no one is. But is "no one" out there ready to give him another chance, some one who still have things to offer to the service? Who is frustrated that his abilities was not seen by the people out there?? I am ready, are you??
tired day... is a day that never seems to end...

regards
dreamwaters