friends.... is it me or is it them??

Yesterday i met up with my poly friends. For some catching up. However i don't know why, something seems to be pulling me away from it. Its not as if i don't enjoy their company, its just seems so predictable whats going to happen at the gathering. What we are going to do in the end.
Okie we met at 2100hrs and as usual all are late except me and brian again. And god damn it lori din come. Met up ar Starbucks, hey i din order a starbucks drink, i bought a orange julius drink ok (for all you guy know, thats even more ex than a starbucks coffee =( ) anyway, started the catching up session. First time, i felt a silence in me. Something i don't usually feel and yes i don't feel like talking. i felt so out of place, especially all the bike talk, to a non biker?? I can see brian trying hard to blend in, but sometimes trying too hard, you know. In the end, i was sitting there for 2hrs listening to them with occasional smiles, cause thats the best i can do. At about 0100hrs, they going to JB to pump petrol and thus that ends the meeting. left the place with the intention to meet simon.
I don't what impression i am leaving in their mind, since i meet them very very rare, last time was last year november. Suddenly appeared again, acting like a snob, or what so ever they think. To be frank, the silence is not because of my attitude, but its just purely, i don't know and have anything to say. Normally when a group of old friends meet up, it would normally be a past reminicising session, but it always end up in a boring session of bike and sacasism. At least now the sacasim is lesser this time round. As for the bike part, i am surprised they did not brought up my bike learning experience ( dont ask, only those who know me long enough would rem, so if you dun know, dun ask too).
When i was walking home, something came to my mind "did kenny change, or did they change" but then again, people change, with different experiences and views in life, a person change, together with the surroundings. Maybe my views have changed, one reason maybe is that i don't really mix much with them, resulting in diverting views. Then again if i have a motorbike, things might have been different again. I would not say which is the outcome i prefer, the first or the latter, i would choose to say i am happy with what and who i am now. I am leading a life that i do get to choose what i like and want to do.
Happy to meet up with them, just that the topic...sigh enough said...
Today sucks, feeling sick and a very very bad sore throat, think i am dying from all the shouting during the anniversary rehearsal and dinner and dance. Now my throat on strike. Think i will need to go rest now.
Its 0044hrs, time to hit the bed.

regards
dreamwaters