Know where you stand... =)

Just came back from a 400m run.... a atheletics meet of the formation. I was just carrrying a mentally that i am not a bad runner, so probably i wouldnt be the last few in the HEATs. When the runners gathered at the start point, i start to get pressure, all not bad huh, got spike shoes, looing damn pro, "ji pai si liao" then i recall a moment ago LTC seah was asking me, kenny how?? the event later?? I told him Sir i try not to be the last. He replied aiya havent run say lost. how to win? i was like eerrrrr. i was in lane 6, when the buzzer goes, everyone started running... i was still within the crowd at the 200m mark, after that people started to run past me, one by one. By then my legs also numb already, tyring to run harder... but to no avail... its like the shit is coming out of the hole soon, that kind of feeling. Hell man, it was really one of a kind feeling. When people started running past me and touching the finishing point, first time i see the finishing line getting farther and farther away from me. When it ended, i can feel my body giving away, its worse than 2.4km. weylingw was wishing me good luck yesterday, somehow after this incident i have learnt that Luck is important, but first the skill and ability must be acquired first.
Also you must know where you stand, like what all chinese say, take a weighting machine and see how much you weighted. But we must also however not to be bounded by this thinking, a famous person also say this before, i can remember who... "if you think you can win, you can, if you th ink you lose, you will"
Not to forget, if you belong to the last few, don't think you can become first overnight. All are training involved. I did't trained but just too bad they are too good for me. By the way, i am second last if you guys are wondering =) and don't laugh god damn it!!!!
Now goin dinner with CPT Low, today also Jiafu bday, they say they wanna try the baffurlo wings... god bless them all. its 1800hrs now... gonna go.

Regards
dreamwaters