Good husband n Son in Law

Derrick is getting engaged in the end of the year, he has got a house with Sally so its a government thingy that they haf to get engaged within half a year. Sally seems to be wonderful lady, at least from what i see and Derrick is also a responsible man, so i would say that they are a perfect couple. Then i started looking at myself, am i ready to make a commitment as big as this?? am i ready to accept someone as my second half?? Seriously, i dont know!!
So in search of the answer, i started asking around, in my mind i was thinking, what makes a good husband or son in law?? i think that would be able to gear up my mental. i approached the Darth of the dark side, Darth Simon, he told me 3 points to be a good son-in-law as quoted by simon Quah
- must be pleasant looking
- must have back bone
- treat their daughter well
So i checked back to my example, Derrick Tan. Oh , he is good looking, not to mention pleasant looking, such a understatement. Backbone?? yeah he has a career to work towards to. Treating Sally well?? at least from what i see, unless there are things that we aint supposed to hear and see... =P So can i conclude that Derrick will be a good husband and son in law??
So much for being such a busybody, my life is in a big mess, had so many useless and time wasting relationships, at least that one with the nurse is. Even have problems accepting someone in my life. Maybe its just my luck, maybe its is just fate that i met her. maybe it is just ME!!! what to do... some times its better to blame myself than to blame others for my misfall. There were nice ladies coming into my life, but maybe because i am not ready for them, and they left as i did not gave them a chance to know me better. What a loser!!! now i am asking myself this question everyday. AM I READY??? how about someone who know me well give me an answer, willing to pay good money for it.....=) like a advertistment in MIRC haha any man wans a sexy boy?? good money??
It could also be a question of confidence, the 3 criteria for a good husband, i dun think i fit into any of them, they are so vague, to be a good husband to it, it also means a secure life, stable job, all these are the tangible things that i think should be the main factor for a good husband, Its sounds very materistic, but would a man who loves her so much that he wanna let her suffer together with him, at the very least for me, no. Not to mention the kid, i sure don't want him to be like me, the same time i hope that he will not become a spoilt brat, i would like to let him have a secure life, studies, to the very best i can do. Imagine a family everyday discussing about $$ problems, not about where to spend but not enough for this and that. Then probably the boy will have white hair like me at a very young age. My wife and i will be worrying about bills, fees, all the liability. Getting filthy rich is not what i desired, i just wanna reach a state that my family is comfortable with our lifestyle. That will be enough for me. I wanna spend time with my son, see him grow up to be a man of character and integrity like his DAD =P hahaha
I think i am still very far from the above dream..... so what to do but to work hard.... "HOPE FOR THE BEST, PREPARE FOR THE WORST" hahaha
.... my chest is aching, damn.... =) think i am losing energy, getting old liao.... weyling always say that i am nonsense, maybe its true, but i am really losing energy wat...Its 2304pm, time to end good night

Regards
dreamwaters