what lies ahead......

Yesterday my boss LTC Seah Cheng soon asked me to go into his office for a interview, normal chat about my leaving of the service. He is still the same guy saying his same old "by and large, by and large" make me feel like laughing throughout the entire interview.

Seems that a person when he reached a certain age he will become smarter and observant. He is a typical example. maybe due to my maturity in age and seniority in the service, i do not feel much pression talking to him anymore. Just like another fatherly figure in my chapter of life.
We started talking about my stay in DETC, what i take away from this stay and what did i saw and felt. Seriously, throughout my life as a young officer in the army, i went through lots of nonsense and shit that probably no one would understand. i learn this theory, i would like to call it kenny's theorom "Experience and punishment is nothing without a lesson learnt" i learnt a lot of lessons apparently =P
everybody was telling its a bad choice to leave the army now, times are bad, better stay put and see how the situation goes. To be frank, i have seen people come and leave the army, there are also people who stay because of the stability of the job, some cant bear to leave because of its pay. Like Kelly, he told me that he cant bear to leave because of the good pay and the working pace. Ray told me that he is planning to get married to a few more years time with his current girlfriend, which is a good thing. Then there are people who would pose me back a question such as "what are you goin to do outside?" Seriously speaking, until today when people ask me this question again and again.... i still do not have an answer, but the answer will always be, anywhere is better than here, i have no fire nor desire to work for anyone in this place, and WORKING IS ABOUT FIRE AND DESIRE!!! but i do hope to get a job in the sales sector, afterall thats what i am good at "TALKING"

LTC Seah asked me why did i signed on?? What a fantastic question!!!! i also asked myself a thousand times, but the answer was not convincing..... or was it too convincing, somehow no matter how i see my life it always surrounds the S-11 issues, i understand that its a phase in life, a process of making me stronger.... but this process sometimes is painful and excruciating, maybe i am more immune to all this shit already, lucky i got a few good men with me.... =) dave always there to remind me of the correct track BY ASKING ME LOTS OF QUESTIONS, he just dun get it that i am a stupid boy. Simon always encourages me, no matter i am right or wrong. Kel always reminds me that i am alive, YK giving me good and solid advices. Kiong the funny guy but always sees him when something requires him to be ard. derrick and CK always very busy, look forward to seeing them everything, miss them very much, although sometimes you would realli feel like kicking Ck in his ass. People always says that in life, if you have one good friend thats very lucky already.... well i have 7. :)

hey i think if this is a compo, i think i have failed already.... hahahahha from a interview become talking about my brothers...

Leaving the service is going to be a big and huge chapter of my life, looking forward to a journey of uncertainty is making me very excited. At the same time, finding a path that genuinely belongs to you, is an experience that you would never be able to calibrate with $$... Of course when it comes with it, who would mind. =)

Think i am getting old and nagging already, its 2300hrs now, after Auldreay intro this forum of self expression to me, i think i can become a writer soon.... its like asking a parrot to write down what he has to say in words hahahaha. Tomo still gonna work.... Auldreay is trying to teach the comp idiot how to add stuff to his blog =)

Regards
dreamwaters